I am quite stressed out. I feel really behind as far as the job search goes. Don't most people know what they're doing by now? Where do I even begin? I'm at such a loss and kind of a mess.

The book agents still haven't gotten back to me, which is an implied no in most cases, so I'm kind of in a place where I don't know what to do. I can certainly keep writing letters, and I probably will, but I don't know if I believe that it's going to happen. I don't know, maybe it's just been a stressful week and I'll feel better later.

In other news, tomorrow is the first "real" rehearsal for TVM, and I'm a little freaked out. We're required to have our monologues memorized (which I do, kind of.) and perform them in front of the cast. That always freaks me out a bit, the first time I do things in front of others. Well, and there's the fact that I'm totally unprepared.

And the exam tomorrow. And the exam Thursday. And the paper due Thursday. And the illness. And, sigh, I don't know. What a week. Thursday cannot come quickly enough.

I just need to go to bed, but I need to study, and I don't really feel like I can focus at the moment.